I must start by commenting on how sparse I’ve been lately with my tumblr. No new posts in nearly three months… I’ve been slacking I suppose. That may have to do with my lack of access to it due to my college’s incessant internet blocking. Carson-Newman how I love thee… Anyway, I begin my new year with a newness post. Quite cliche? Oh. WHO CARES. 

So, I am finding myself on this January day thinking on my life. My new start, to a new year. It is quite late to be thinking of making a change, but better now than ever. I’m thinking about my relationships. The first one I must acknowledge would be the one I have with Christ Jesus. My Savior, my King, my Abba, my Father-God, His Holy Spirit dwelling inside of me. Man, it is kind of cool to talk about having that many relations with one all-knowing, all-powerful being that is God. This is the relationship I long to be the closest out of all.  I want to long for the same intimate-closeness with Him as He does with me. Let’s be real, it is going to be hard. Extremely hard. To put away all the sins and deep issues I have to let Him get down to the very core of my being. Its almost to my simple human mind—impossible. Oh, but nothing is impossible for my God. With His very Spirit inside of me, much can be accomplished in the total transformation of my heart, soul and life completely. 

This first step consequently, would be knowing Him thoroughly. That would begin with Scripture. Digging into His Word to know His character throughout the Old Testament. Then seeing His very plan proclaimed in the Old Testament carried out through His Son, Jesus Christ in the New Testament. Then His message to us through Paul, John Mark, Peter, etc. in many letters and the Gospels. I want to hear from Him through His very Word. I can pray, journal or talk about Him all I want, but until I am listening to Him there is no real conversation or relationship in essence.  I long deeply for it. Only He can heal the deepest wounds I have. Only He can fill the voids in my heart. Only He can truly know who I am. Only He can know what He has in store for my life, my very purpose here on earth. Only He can save me and set me free from my sin. Only He can cure any struggle or doubt that I have. Only He can love me unconditionally, and more than anyone else ever will. Wow. He is amazing, and I want to know Him better. 

Therefore, I conclude with saying I am going to stop being so selfish. I am going to put my desire for Him to work through digging into Scripture. I am going to let the Fruit of His Spirit transform my life.